Our songs.

When me and my girlfriend were together we had a song.

Now we're apart, we have a song.

We can never break up
We can never not show
We can never go home
No, we can never elope

We've only got one choice
So let's keep making it
And making it
Making it
And making it

A lot of things can change
A lot of tears will dry
There's no way out of your head
I can't still drink like I'm trying

I never had to work too hard
Let's keep working it
And working it
Working it
And working it

You're like a test, I can't fuck up
You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la la like a dream
Don't wake me up and if I never see the light again
Well I guess they put me in the ground with this smile on my head, my love
My love

We can never break up
We can never not show
We can never go home
And we can never elope

We've only got one choice
So let's keep making it
And making it
Making it
And making it

You're like a test, I can't fuck up
You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la la like a dream
Don't wake me up and if I never see the light again
Well I guess they put me underground with this smile on my head, my love
My love [9x]

You say you stand by your man
Tell me something I don't understand
You said you loved me and that's a fact
and then you left me, said you felt trapped

Well some things you can't explain away
But the heartache's in me till this day

CHORUS
You didn't you stand by me
No, not at all
You didn't stand by me
No way

All the times
When we were close
I'll remember these things the most
I see all my dreams come tumbling down
I can't be happy without you round

So alone I keep the wolves at bay
and there is only one thing that I can say

CHORUS

You must explain why this must be
Did you lie when you spoke to me

Did you stand by me
No, not at all

Now I got a job
But it don't pay
I need new clothes
I need somewhere to stay
But without all of these things I can do
But without your love I won't make it through

But you don't understand my point of view
I suppose there's nothing I can do

CHORUS X 2

You must explain why this must be
Did you lie when you spoke to me

Did you stand by me
Did you stand by me
No, not at all
Did you stand by me
No way
Did you stand by me
No, not at all
Did you stand by me
No way

Me and my scars

I have a long history of self-harm. It starts age 11, and ends age 18. I have scars pretty much everywhere; my arms, shoulders, breasts, legs, hands, feet...

I am NOT ashamed.

I am aware that people judge me when they see my bare arms. I am happy and willing to hide my scars when meeting new people, or representing my family. I understand that they do not reflect well on us.

But I am NOT ashamed.

Bad stuff has happened in my life, I have mental health problems. I am not ashamed of these things. I could list them, but it would achieve nothing.

My scars are a result of the things I have survived. I would not be the intelligent, emotionally-balanced, caring person I am if I didn't have my scars. They are part of me.

I am NOT ashamed.